Monday, November 06, 2006

Feeling a bit down

We had Colby's party on the weekend and I will post about that and have pictures soon. I received some very disturbing news yesterday that a woman that I worked with had suddenly passed away on Saturday. She was only 32 and died from what I understand was a heart attack. She was not well on Thursday and Friday, stayed in hospital for those days, was released (again I believe) on Saturday, and while going out with her signficant other for supper on Saturday, collapsed. I'm still getting my head around the fact that this woman I worked with everyday, sat next to, is now gone. Just like that. Although she had no children, she had a nephew that she adored and talked about constantly. This, so soon after watching the Cameron family and their loss, has really "shook my foundation" so to speak. Death is not something that I spend a lot of time thinking about, but when 2 people you know are suddenly gone, you can't really help it. I feel I have been very fortunate in my life, to have met my soul mate very early in life and to have 2 amazing children. I look at other people I know, some I only know through blogs that I read, and some I know very closely, who are my age but are in different spots in their lives, still looking for that "someone special". I would love nothing more than to see everyone I know as happy as I am, to have someone to share their lives with. I even find myself thinking when I hear someone say " I'm so tired of being single, I just wish I could find the right guy", I really have to resist the urge to say "well, I have 2 husbands, would you like one?!" and have actually said this more times than I should. I just really want the people in my life to be happy, to enjoy being with someone and being married or together as much as I do, and if I can do that without being the person who says "Hea, I know someone who would be perfect for you, let me hook you up." I just can't help but think "what if there was no tomorrow?" What if someone close to me was suddenly just not there anymore? But, thinking about the "what ifs" will only drive you crazy. So, with all that being said, I can't help but sit here with my cup of coffee, smile and say to anyone interested "So, wanna hear about my other husband?"

5 comments:

Valentina said...

You are such a generous, kind and genuine person, Tina. As you know, I too have been thinking a lot about the meaning of life and death these days. The "What ifs?" are a direct consequence of those thoughts... But life can't be lived following the "what if" question and now more than ever I understand what a very wise person has always said to me, live your life to the fullest and keep the regrets and the "what ifs" to the minimum.

Valentina said...

Here is big hug that I hope we'll cheer you up...

Tina said...

Thanks Val.

dawn mclaughlin said...

I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. Death is impossible to avoid and way too real 100% of the time, making it a thought hard to face.

I have faced those moments too, unfortunately- and it has become my credo to say "life is too short", because it is. And I think that's why I don't worry too much about my wanderlust and lack of energy for love. idunno.

So you found your soul mate early, but have a second husband? Sounds like a great blog topic to me!!!!

Tawny said...

Sad story Tina.. but Dawn's right. Life IS too short. People need to realize this and spend the time they do have being happy. Otherwise, it's a waste of the life that has been given to you.

I am glad that you are content in the life that you have earned...it's everything that I ever wanted for you :).